Recently, I had a very short, but very powerful encounter with a loved one of a good friend, and that experience sparked me to share a little bit more about how I discovered I was a psychic medium.
A lot of times people think of mediums as people that can bring spirits from the other side on demand, but I don’t use my gift or market myself in that way. When I do act as a psychic medium and connect with someone’s loved ones, it is always to deliver a loving and healing message from the other side to serve my client at their highest good.
I discovered that I was a medium when I made contact with my late mom-in-love, whom we lost very suddenly a few years ago. My relationship with her had been complicated in the past because, although she was always a loving and caring force in my life, my relationship with my own mother was not. It was difficult for me to trust my mom-in-love based on her love and patience toward me and I had created massive boundaries and walls around our relationship.
All of the spiritual awakening and personal growth and healing work I had been doing was starting to pay off, and I started seeing how I was stopping love or refusing love for the fear of disappointment and conditional love. At the beginning of 2016, I set the intention to “take down these walls” and love my mom-in-love with open heart and more importantly let HER know how much I loved her. Then only a few weeks later on February 3rd, she had passed away suddenly.
I can’t describe the emotional hole and regret I felt around our relationship. I had built all these stupid walls around our relationship for over ten years, and when I finally decided to lose the walls and love her fully, I was too late. It was too late. We had lost her.
They do say something devastating and heartbreaking like this experience can trigger or speed up deeper spiritual awakening, and that must have been how it happened for me. A few months later I was taking an online class that introduced us to psychic mediumship. During our group exercises on how to open our channel for connection meditatively, my mom-in-love made the connection with me right away. It was as if she had been waiting for me to finally open myself up.
The messages she gave me was so validating and loving...and so specific that I had to believe it was her. I had been wanting a piece of Mom’s jewelry as a momento, but with my sister-in-love in possession of all her jewelry, who was grieving and having a difficult time, I knew it would be a bit tricky to ask. During the “conversation” with mom, she acknowledged my desire and gave me a ring (a vision of a ring) as a gift, something that was silver, carved with butterflies, then said “here is a ring you wanted, now let Amy keep all my jewelry.”
It took me some time for me to “come clean” and come out of the “mediumship closet”. It was a powerful, healing, and loving experience for me to connect with my mom-in-love, and for a while, I just wanted that moment to stay between me and her. The trouble was, I started getting more messages. The second came from a young man named Billy.
I had never met Billy while he was alive. I had only met his mom once briefly and had heard weeks later that she had lost her son. But when his spirit connected with me, it was as clear and direct as he was alive and standing right next to me, talking nonstop wanting me to deliver all his messages to his family.
When Billy came, it was more like he pushed his way in, pulled up a chair in the middle of my thoughts and started talking about what he came to talk about. Billy had this way of just showing up and claiming the space, and a charming way of commanding attention. There have been times when I tried to “explain” why he shouldn’t just show up whenever - (I’m standing in line at Starbucks), (it’s 3 am, dude, WTF?) Or (you know other spirits wait until I put up “open” sign.) It didn’t seem to bother him at all.
Billy is an important spirit to me because he really helped me to push past some of the fears I had around my mediumship gift. Having such a strong connection and presence from Billy and receiving so much validation and gratitude from his loved ones when I had shared his messages really helped me gain my confidence as a psychic medium.
Many people often ask me to connect them with a spirit or loved one as a medium. To me, this doesn’t feel like the best way to move forward and heal from the loss. Actively knocking on that door to connect, or relying too heavily on these messages to help us grieve doesn’t feel right.
I believe it’s important not to seek that connection and validation as our main means of healing - it’s something that can help us, but we need to go through the process of grief and healing on our own in this physical world too. I describe getting messages from the loved ones who have crossed over as an unsolicited love notes or hello notes - we don’t anticipate, seek, or demand these notes when we receive them. When they arrive we accept them with joy and love.
It is an exciting time in the world right now - more and more people are discovering their spiritual gifts and deepening their connection to the divine/spirit/source/god. This energetic shift has allowed more and more people to seek out their own intuition, openness, and curiosity with their potential gifts. My hope is that with the right tools and resources, and mentorship from other people who have experienced similar spiritual awakening, more people can connect with their soul purpose and gifts and serve people and the world at deeper, more magical level. And maybe some of you too will find out a gift of mediumship.
I am available for spiritual mentorship and coaching for those of you who are going through your own spiritual growth. Message me if you’d like to learn more on how I can help you with your journey.
Meet Seo Kelleher, an intuitive coach for life and business, committed to empowering women. "I am passionate about helping women find the courage to transform their lives by embracing their vulnerability and taking the responsibility."